My name is Dez Hush, I’m 26 years old. I’m amazing at everything I do. The last few years have been insane, a dangerous roller-coaster that I love to ride. I take my own breath away, how many people can say that? I can take your breath away. I don’t let people in; I let it out on the paper. If writing was a crime I would be a murderer. I have a light that shines through me, I challenge darkness. Most hate my positive aspect of life, but then misery likes company. I’m not that company. I surround myself with goodness; those who don’t like it beat your feet. Most take my kindness for weakness. I’m just a silent bomb, when I blow its explosive. I’m a Gemini to the core hot/cold, passionate, bold, sophisticated, reckless… very reckless! I act then think. I kind of love that about myself; there is something spontaneous about not thinking. I love adventure, the little things in life matter to me. Money is only paper, nothing can buy me. I try to figure myself out and it fascinates me that I can’t. I don’t believe in love, I almost did but it’s a facade that people create to have a happier existence… I wish I did believe because I think if I loved I would love deeply. My career is my first priority, people are getting married and having babies, I’m ready to take on the world and experience as much as I can until I am no longer. Music is my heart beat, no one make the sound I make. Someone wise once told me “jump off a building and believe you can fly,” so I did and I’m still in the clouds, high gliding over everyone... everything and I love it.
Thursday, December 15, 2011
Friday, November 18, 2011
THE FORK
Forget what was, forget the façade of “LOVE”
Forget the life that hurt you
Live for today, live in the now
I wish I could teach you how to be happy
Make you happy, hold you and have the world disappear
There’s a fork in your road
Go forward, be free, breathe deeply and think of me
You intrigue me,
Your passion
Knowing I can’t have all of you
Knowing were not ment to be
A train wreak waiting to collide…
Crash into me
I can take the debris
Monday, September 12, 2011
Forbidden
Sunday, August 7, 2011
Night I Love Thee
I had a dream last night
That my soul took me on a journey through my mind
Through a maze of green grass and never ending brick walls on fire
As i looked back there were red and orange taunting flames of hate’s past
At the end a fairy tale, of black skies
And a little girl who still plays under rainbows
No longer believing in a happy ending
Searching for a way out the madness of my mind
That took over my heart and left my soul to guide me
It said...
What is truth but a word
Manipulation a game
Love a facade
Walk through the twilit of denial
Hold the hand of fear and embrace it
Night I love thee
Fall with me through the dark sky
Into nothing but emptiness and adore it
Enjoy it
So I did....
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
I Wish...
I wish my heart didn’t feel so heavy
I wish I wasn’t so sad because of you
I wish you could take this pain away
I wish I could have saved you
I wish I would have never let you down
I wish I could have you back
I wish it didn’t hurt so badly
I wish I didn’t miss you so much
I wish my soul wasn’t bleeding sadness
I wish I would hear your voice
I wish I could let you go
I wish I could feel your touch
I wish memories wouldn't hurt
I wish I wasn’t ashamed of my grief
I wish I could smile again
I wish I could remember every moment
I wish we could share just one more laugh
I wish I could have taken your pain away
I wish you were here
I wish I didn’t feel so alone
I wish I could look at myself in a mirror
I wish you could feel how bad it hurts
I wish I could accept what is
I wish I could dream of you every night
I wish I wasn’t haunted by your memory
I wish I could face reality
I wish i wasn't waiting for you to return
I wish I wasn’t so broken
I wish, I wish, I wish, I wish, I wish, I wish, I wish
Out of this nightmare that is my reality forever without you
Dez Hush
Wednesday, January 5, 2011
Dream Dream Dream
Every beat of me misses you
I feel lost in my own world
Without your voice, without your touch
Come back to me, even in a dreams
Come back to me
My soul weeps for you
How do i spend forever without you
I can’t let you go, i know i have to
But i can’t, I never will
The pain shoot through me
Half my soul gone
Save me from the darkness you have left me in
I’m so angry at you for taking a piece of me
For leaving me abandoned trapped inside myself
Trapped in someone I don’t know
Who am I without you
Bring me back to life
I want to breath again, I just want to breath
Every moment, every laugh, every tear
Burns through me
Lost in limbo without you
I wish you could feel my pain
I wish you could feel my sadness
But you can’t, you had the easy way out of this hell
God grant me the peace to accept what is
How could you love someone so much
I try to numb it but its there, it’s always there
Your always there
Promise you’ll never let me go
Promise we can still be one
You said you’d come see me in my dreams
And every night i wait for you
Every night I wait for you
by Dez Hush