Thursday, December 15, 2011

@DEZHUSH


My name is Dez Hush, I’m 26 years old. I’m amazing at everything I do. The last few years have been insane, a dangerous roller-coaster that I love to ride. I take my own breath away, how many people can say that? I can take your breath away. I don’t let people in; I let it out on the paper. If writing was a crime I would be a murderer. I have a light that shines through me, I challenge darkness. Most hate my positive aspect of life, but then misery likes company. I’m not that company. I surround myself with goodness; those who don’t like it beat your feet. Most take my kindness for weakness. I’m just a silent bomb, when I blow its explosive. I’m a Gemini to the core hot/cold, passionate, bold, sophisticated, reckless… very reckless! I act then think. I kind of love that about myself; there is something spontaneous about not thinking. I love adventure, the little things in life matter to me. Money is only paper, nothing can buy me. I try to figure myself out and it fascinates me that I can’t. I don’t believe in love, I almost did but it’s a facade that people create to have a happier existence… I wish I did believe because I think if I loved I would love deeply. My career is my first priority, people are getting married and having babies, I’m ready to take on the world and experience as much as I can until I am no longer. Music is my heart beat, no one make the sound I make. Someone wise once told me “jump off a building and believe you can fly,” so I did and I’m still in the clouds, high gliding over everyone... everything and I love it.


Friday, November 18, 2011

THE FORK




I wish you could take a breath of fresh air
Forget what was, forget the façade of “LOVE”
Forget the life that hurt you
Live for today, live in the now

I wish I could teach you how to be happy
Make you happy, hold you and have the world disappear
There’s a fork in your road
Go forward, be free, breathe deeply and think of me

You intrigue me,
Your passion
Knowing I can’t have all of you
Knowing were not ment to be
A train wreak waiting to collide…

Crash into me
I can take the debris

Monday, September 12, 2011

Forbidden





May the warm wind melt the cold from your heart
I challenge your darkness, trying to break through
The darkness you love...
The darkness i loved
Night I escaped thee
And left my love behind
Hoping our worlds could keep us together
I carry you in my thought
Moments...
Words...
Feeling your essences from afar
Knowing it is not our time
Knowing it will never work
I still hold on
Never letting go
Fitting together perfectly
Back to back
Not being able to face each other
I’ll wait for you...
Until you find the mornings light
I'll wait for you...
Through the night

Sunday, August 7, 2011

Night I Love Thee


I had a dream last night
That my soul took me on a journey through my mind
Through a maze of green grass and never ending brick walls on fire
As i looked back there were red and orange taunting flames of hate’s past
At the end a fairy tale, of black skies
And a little girl who still plays under rainbows
No longer believing in a happy ending
Searching for a way out the madness of my mind
That took over my heart and left my soul to guide me

It said...
What is truth but a word
Manipulation a game
Love a facade
Walk through the twilit of denial
Hold the hand of fear and embrace it
Night I love thee
Fall with me through the dark sky
Into nothing but emptiness and adore it
Enjoy it

So I did....

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

I Wish...


I wish my heart didn’t feel so heavy

I wish I wasn’t so sad because of you

I wish you could take this pain away

I wish I could have saved you

I wish I would have never let you down

I wish I could have you back

I wish it didn’t hurt so badly

I wish I didn’t miss you so much

I wish my soul wasn’t bleeding sadness

I wish I would hear your voice

I wish I could let you go

I wish I could feel your touch

I wish memories wouldn't hurt

I wish I wasn’t ashamed of my grief

I wish I could smile again

I wish I could remember every moment

I wish we could share just one more laugh

I wish I could have taken your pain away

I wish you were here

I wish I didn’t feel so alone

I wish I could look at myself in a mirror

I wish you could feel how bad it hurts

I wish I could accept what is

I wish I could dream of you every night

I wish I wasn’t haunted by your memory

I wish I could face reality

I wish i wasn't waiting for you to return

I wish I wasn’t so broken

I wish, I wish, I wish, I wish, I wish, I wish, I wish

Out of this nightmare that is my reality forever without you


Dez Hush

Wednesday, January 5, 2011

Dream Dream Dream


Every beat of me misses you

I feel lost in my own world

Without your voice, without your touch

Come back to me, even in a dreams

Come back to me

My soul weeps for you

How do i spend forever without you

I can’t let you go, i know i have to

But i can’t, I never will

The pain shoot through me

Half my soul gone

Save me from the darkness you have left me in

I’m so angry at you for taking a piece of me

For leaving me abandoned trapped inside myself

Trapped in someone I don’t know

Who am I without you

Bring me back to life

I want to breath again, I just want to breath

Every moment, every laugh, every tear

Burns through me

Lost in limbo without you

I wish you could feel my pain

I wish you could feel my sadness

But you can’t, you had the easy way out of this hell

God grant me the peace to accept what is

How could you love someone so much

I try to numb it but its there, it’s always there

Your always there

Promise you’ll never let me go

Promise we can still be one

You said you’d come see me in my dreams

And every night i wait for you

Every night I wait for you

by Dez Hush